Behind the mask

 Are we all happy, or do we usually tend to fake it and wear a mask? Do you know that when I smile, it's an escape for me to hide my emotions? It's easy to give a smile and fake it, but all my tears are being held captive inside my head.

I have to be strong for myself and fight my own battles alone. I can't be a burden to others who will listen to me and catch all my tears, because I could fill up the whole sea. I'll take your heart and won't break it, but I don't trust myself when my tears are rolling down my cheeks, because I feel weak and small.

I'm there for anyone who needs me, but I don't want anyone to be there next to me, hearing all my secrets that I've hidden deep down in my head, hoping that nothing will trigger my past experiences. I know it's difficult to find your true smile, but trust me, I've been through it too. It's always easy to smile and act as if everything is going great in your world, but it's okay to cry sometimes and be vulnerable. Your not lost but your still searching for the path you want to pursue.

Don't let your past trauma affect you in ways that can cause your relationships to break and mess up the good friendships you've already created. It's time for your inner child to heal and come out of the cage you've trapped it in. Let that child heal and explore the world through your eyes, which are full of bright colors and happiness that you possess and spread to others. There will be time where the thoughts will come back but you're strong enough and face the problem and learn from that experience.