The unseen pain

 Why can you read my mind like an open book?

I'm shook to the core.

I was torn to pieces, and you knew.

You knew everything, but still left me on my own.

I never told anyone anything, but you found out.

I was crowned with silent thorns that pierced my skin slowly but surely.

I felt each and every prick.

I didn't quite show my emotions properly.

I tried my best to be fine when I'm not.

But how did you find out?

I knew you weren't that dumb, but I didn't expect you to know what was going on in my life.

It's a mess.

I feel drained as if my soul is going to be taken.

I'm trying to decompress my stress, so that I can live and won't fully die inside.

With a blind eye, I unnoticed everything that I notice.

But how did you read me as if I am showing my whole life?

How did you find out I was in a place where I'm losing control and crying for my peace of mind?

And just wanted to disappear and appear whenever I want to.

I want to live my whole life without any tension, questioning if I am doing the right or wrong thing for me.

I am lost inside, trying to search for myself, and caring too much for others.

Bearing each and every pain that I have to encounter, surrendering myself to my shadow to have all control.

Cause I don't know myself anymore.

I want to live peacefully without disturbance.

But why didn't you tell me that you knew, and you still wanted me to fight my own battles?

Wished I had you by my side when I want support, and someone that I could lean on.