Unique Minds

 The past can't come back, right? Because it's over, but I don't know why My palms were sweaty, chest was tight, As if I couldn't breathe in sight. Everything blurry but muffled at the same time. I thought I had no more life, but somehow I calmed myself in a quiet, isolated place Where life felt safe and free from all distractions. There were no triggers, but suddenly I felt unsafe, Heart pounding, trying to control my breathing And be strong. I just kept saying to myself. This will also pass, That I'm in control of myself and stronger than I seem. Having faith is difficult in the wilderness. It's like a repeat cycle, which I thought I'd overcome, Had just opened up again. Memories came flooding in, which I'd concealed In the hidden corners of my head, But things were blurry, not sealed. I'm still present here, but my headspace is somewhere else. I need time to process my emotions in the right way So that I don't feel it again, because it's...

 We used to be close, But now the chapter has been closed for a reason. I guess the times we spent were happy memories, But I can't forget how much you made me feel That you'd be there for me when I'd be in my lows. Can't say I miss you, but can't say I don't. Sometimes randomly, I'm reminded of you, Or a thought arises, wondering if you're fine and how's life. Our paths have changed; maybe you were a chapter For my life, but you did have an impact That nobody could explain. The thought of distress, anxious avoidance creeps on my mind, A shadow that stares from the corner past my bedtime. I don't know how I became like this, A person who once knew everything and had an ambition rocket-high, Now just there to observe the silence between each room, Swallowing in the darkness at night, body present but mind somewhere else. Maybe I've changed, but now I can't blame anyone Because I've made myself avoid people and loud spaces So I won'...

 I get attached too fast, I love hard but feel it too deeply. I hear the silence in people's words, Notice every detail, the shift of emotions that lingers, Creeping slowly like a cat, ready to pounce on a rat. I show emotion to the people who break me apart, So can I start from the start? But every emotion hits me like I'm underneath the boulder. I know I'm still healing from the inside, But it takes time to know your worth. To know if this is truly yourself Or shapeshifting just to try to smile. To run a mile seems more efficient than to open up, But healing takes time, so trust that this all is a plan For something bigger and better for you.

 I don't know if I can feel things anymore, Because the rent of my soul is too high, and it's due. In my head, pain passes through; Your trial is long past, gone now. I'm done with your pain; your words mean nothing now Because I'm immune to your games. Now I don't even feel sorry every time you cry Or see you in every encounter. Because I'm a bitter pill, I don't really care now, Because you were the first one to start. I watched you play; now two can play this game. Your push and pull won't break me. I wasn't like this before; I had a heart, But you were the one who turned it into stone. I don't know if I can ever see you as the same person, Maybe just a distant person. But I was prepared, as if I already knew it was coming. My mind sees what others overlook. I trust my observations and protect my peace Before it's tested by your games again. But I hope you don't do this to another person In their mansion, playing this game of prey. I h...