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Echoes of the Past

 I got used to doing everything sideways, Didn't even use to care what others told me . I bore all my burdens, Cause I wanted to restart my life. I hid my bruises, overused but refused To accept the reality of brutality's bruises. I didn't want to tell you what you wanted to hear. I know it's not the right time, But hoping you'll follow the daylight, not the dim light. Clinging on to my life as if I'm going into a deep slumber, I mumbled and stumbled over every word I wished I could tell. I wish I would have guided you this evening, But it won't even take me three drinks to call you tonight. I'm terrified of the light that's still holding on to my side. I won't lie, I search for you in myself, knowing you were my past self. But still, I have regrets about my life that drive me crazy. Hazy thoughts run through me, changing me, Reminding me of the missing pieces, Pieces I've lost and am ashamed to acknowledge. But I don't care if I get torn...

The mirror reflection

 The hardest critic is yourself. Why do you judge yourself so harshly? Why do you care about what others will say? What they say doesn't matter; what matters is feeling content with your own choices and happy about them. You can't make everyone happy around you. There will be people who won't share your opinions. Not all humans are the same, right? We all have unique abilities that make us special, so why judge yourself so much? Why are you so insecure about what others will say? You have your own mind to think about the decisions you've chosen. If that's right for you, don't be harsh on yourself. Don't overwork your mind. I know you can handle stress, but learn to balance it too. Otherwise, you'll fall into a deep pit that's hard to climb out of. Learn to love yourself and remember you're a living person with a heart that's still alive. Don't be harsh on yourself; learn to live your life to its full potential.

Friendship that lasts a life time

 Best friends aren't just people who give advice; they're also there to listen. They'll be with you through the highs and lows, offering a reality check when you need it most. Even when you're drifting apart, they'll be the support you need . Best  friends are also your partner in crime, creating memories that will last a lifetime - some of which might be embarrassing, too! Keep them close, because you never know when you'll meet again. Life gets busy, and everyone goes their separate ways .So cherish the friendships you've created and be grateful for friends who will always be there for you. They're your backbone in times of need, and their support will always be there .

Be the reason for someone to believe the goodness of people

 Are you still alive, or have you been consumed by your own self? How can you tell yourself that you're still alive in this world full of distractions?You have a big heart, and you care about others more than you care about yourself. You overthink a lot, which becomes overwhelming inside your head. You say sorry a lot, just for that piece of mind you get inside your head. Sometimes, you think about others and their feelings that you forget all about yourself. It's fine to care for the people you love, but you should also make yourself your own priority too. Make time for yourself and your own well-being. Sometimes, you need time for yourself and just need a break from all the distractions attacking your way. Do good, but don't drain yourself out .When you go out of your way to help others, so that they can believe that there's still good in this world full of unknown  secrets . Be the reason that someone believes in the goodness of people, but also remember, you should ...

Regret

 I can't say that I knew you well, But I didn't. I can't say that I hated you, Cause I couldn't. I can't say that I loved you, Because I didn't allow myself to. I was too consumed in my own emotions, That I neglected yours. You tried to help me, but in vain, Strain to my core, I felt the pain. But I distanced myself from you, For your own good will, Cause I thought I would still be a strain. Blame myself for everything, Cause I didn't deserve this kindness. Reckless from the start, Drove all night in the dark, Drunk and shaken at the back of my trunk, Gazing at the stars. Is like the whole world revolved around you, Everything was clear, bright as day, But the darkness consumed me in my sleep. I didn't have anyone to keep me safe, Which I regret. I wish I wouldn't have taken you for granted, Cause all I wanted was you there, And not push myself away from you. At the end, I realized that I shouldn't have done that, But you taught me how great your...

A game of chess

 In the dimmest light, I searched for you, Emotions raw, my heart in awe  Each day, a longing to see your face, Trauma's drama unfolded, a painful play, I thought our love was real, but it slipped away. Your touch brought me peace, a dopamine high, But it was just a facade or a final goodbye. You taught me love's true meaning, though it hurt, broke my heart but  It was a beautiful feeling  that wasn't worthy of my love   Not all love is meant to be, I've learnt that it was a game to you  You left me shaken, my thoughts all over the place  But in my subconscious , a truth began to sway  Your love was false, and it was meant to end  I was just a pawn not your queen , and you were the master mind in the game of chess. But I've learned to rise, to let go of the pain, To find my own strength,  to love again.

Second chances

 Does everybody deserve a second chance? What do you all think? It's so hard to forgive people, right? But we all should have a big heart and forgive our enemies. No matter how much they hurt us and used us, we have to stay strong and not fight with them now. We should let our success speak for itself. It's not the right time to fight, but it's time to work on yourself and take that leap you always wanted to do, but were afraid that people might judge you and make fun of you. So what if they do? You know that you can achieve more than you want to. And if they doubt you now, later they will regret every doubt about your ability when you show them what you have become and how far you have come. So keep trying don't stop .

Sometimes you just have to believe

 Sometimes, you just have to believe to achieve something that seems impossible. Don't think that you can't do it - you surely can. Be happy and do the things you love to do, and don't get worried about the small things in your life. There are people who have much bigger problems than you do. You just have to remove the shield that is covering your eyes to see. Look at the small things in life and be happy. Don't overthink every situation that might happen. If it's the right time, it will happen if you believe that you can do it . You can do so much more than you think you can achieve. I believe that you will achieve your highest goals and accomplish a lot in life. Trust in yourself and stop doubting your capability – you can do it. Be confident, and you will rock your life with wonders and achieve greatness

Tired of being strong

 I am tired of being strong I'm getting weaker and weaker each day I wish I had someone who would listen and not judge me. I can't keep everything inside a bottle I'm going to explode soon I'm losing everything slowly There is nothing here for me now I can't wait longer for things to work out I love to see the moon and sunset Now that also seems so dull to me Each night, I ignore the cry in my head Lead by my heart, life seems to get more difficult each day. I can't keep faking a smile and telling everyone I'm good when I'm not I can't keep running away from my problems It will come and haunt me in my dreams Every night, I sleep late and wake up to think "what if this happened?" I can't hold everything much longer Just a few more years, I thought, but it's going slower than I wanted it to go I don't know whom to vent to, because I like to keep it to myself But it's getting harder each day I'm getting burned out But I kno...

Faith over fear

  Focus on the present and not the future . Don't think about what will happen to you in the future because it's not in your hands .God will lead the path and open it for you.If  it was meant to be yours  nothing will stop you from achieving the heights that was meant to be yours  . Sometimes our dreams might not align to what was written in our destiny and we won't get it too because it wasn't meant for us . God knows what you will do before you even do it he can see what you will achieve in your highest and lowest of times. So instead of breaking your head to see what you will do in the future .Pur your trust and faith in God he will show you the path .If you became distant is fine you can start now it's never too

The unseen pain

 Why can you read my mind like an open book? I'm shook to the core. I was torn to pieces, and you knew. You knew everything, but still left me on my own. I never told anyone anything, but you found out. I was crowned with silent thorns that pierced my skin slowly but surely. I felt each and every prick. I didn't quite show my emotions properly. I tried my best to be fine when I'm not. But how did you find out? I knew you weren't that dumb, but I didn't expect you to know what was going on in my life. It's a mess. I feel drained as if my soul is going to be taken. I'm trying to decompress my stress, so that I can live and won't fully die inside. With a blind eye, I unnoticed everything that I notice. But how did you read me as if I am showing my whole life? How did you find out I was in a place where I'm losing control and crying for my peace of mind? And just wanted to disappear and appear whenever I want to. I want to live my whole life without any ...

Behind the mask

 Are we all happy, or do we usually tend to fake it and wear a mask? Do you know that when I smile, it's an escape for me to hide my emotions? It's easy to give a smile and fake it, but all my tears are being held captive inside my head. I have to be strong for myself and fight my own battles alone. I can't be a burden to others who will listen to me and catch all my tears, because I could fill up the whole sea. I'll take your heart and won't break it, but I don't trust myself when my tears are rolling down my cheeks, because I feel weak and small. I'm there for anyone who needs me, but I don't want anyone to be there next to me, hearing all my secrets that I've hidden deep down in my head, hoping that nothing will trigger my past experiences. I know it's difficult to find your true smile, but trust me, I've been through it too. It's always easy to smile and act as if everything is going great in your world, but it's okay to cry somet...

A part of myself that i lost

 I loved that you care for others, And protect them from all danger. You're kind and selfless, Your braver than me, though I'm lost in my head, full of my own Imagination of the life I wished I had. I'm forgetting who I am inside, From everything to nothing at all. Carried my thoughts from here to there, Whom shall I speak to when I feel I'm distancing myself from me? I don't know the person I'm becoming. I had a flame inside me, which I know that will die soon.  I had thought a lot about my future, but now I soak it up and keep it all inside. Crying my lungs out won't work for now. How much can a person cry in one day? Grey and black are all that I see. What happened to all the colors like pink and yellow? I am fighting my own battles inside my head, Battles I must conquer.  I can't lose control now; I have no time to do that.  I can't think properly Because there's so much going on, but Sometimes I think my life is completely complicated. Fru...

Be courageous

 Sometimes, sleepless nights consume you, with thoughts of the same thing repeating in your mind. It's hard to forget, but it's time to let go of the memories you shared with that person.You might feel like your world is crashing down, but it's not. There are people who care deeply for you and will always be there, no matter how much you try to push them away.Make the right decision, as one wrong move can make or break your life's choices. I believe in you and your ability to make the right choice and fight for it.Don't give up on yourself. Remember, people will always be there for you, through life's highs and lows, with love and support.

Realisation hits hard

 Some mornings are hard, you wake up late, not feeling like yourself. And then realisation hits you like you have never seen before . It's time to do a self reflection in the mirror and see what is going on and what you have to fix, to make things right. To be honest, it's hard to realise that people aren't what they seem to be sometimes. This becomes more hard when you trusted them. You will feel a lot of emotions going on in your life, you can't even pin point to the emotions you are feeling right now. It's totally fine to feel that way. And always remember, when a storm comes in your life, you have to fight it with all your strength no matter how much you feel discouraged and weak and think that life isn't worth living. After every storm, no matter how harsh it was, the sun will rise again. So look forward to the light and if you can still feel the pain of realisation, then this is a sign that you still have a heart and you are a good person. So safe...

Break all chains

  Break all the chains of the past.The fears will all go away from you because nothing is impossible .The chains will come out. You have to break it yourself. No one else will do it for you.You have a life that is full of new adventures; don't let the chains bind you together. You are so much more than you think you are. You can build your own destination of what you want to do. Break these chains slowly but surely.You have to get out of this misery and step out into the real world. Where you can overcome life challenges and see the people who are unfortunate and trying to break their own chains. We all take life for granted because we know that we will live another day, so we stay comfortably in our chains. We should not do that because there are people in the world trying to break their chains with a chainsaw because they know that this might be their last day on earth and then come the final destination of God. 

Don't take your own sweet time

 If you wait for the perfect moment, you'll be stuck in the same place, repeating the cycle again and again. So, it's better to take a leap now and do what makes you happy. It doesn't matter if things don't go as planned. What counts is being happy and content with what you do.Live your life to the fullest! Don't worry about what others think. People will always have their opinions. Be smart enough to ignore those who don't want the best for you and focus on what you enjoy. Start now, even if you're unsure. Everyone begins small and grows gradually. Don't delay! Later often becomes never.

Positive mindset

 It's all about your mindset. You must tell yourself that you can make it, no matter what obstacles come your way, and that you will believe in yourself and find a way out. You have to defeat your negative thoughts and conquer your dreams. It's all in your head - see the positive outcome, not the negative. If you always focus on the negative, negativity will creep in. So, look at the bright side of things. After every rain, there is a rainbow on the other side. If you focus on the rain, you'll see all the bad aspects of life. Instead, focus on the rainbow, where you'll learn to grow and discover new things from life. Life has so much to offer, but as humans, we're often too naive to see it and focus only on the problems we're facing, not on what's happening around us. Sometimes, we get so consumed by our work, studies, and personal goals that we forget about what's going on around us. This is a reminder to catch up with your childhood friends, ask them h...

Frozen in pain

 You killed me from outside and inside  Why are you an animal to me  You are acting as if I have done something to you  You play the victim card ever too often  You pull my hair and glare at me as if I am your mare. It hurts. It hurts every night . I sleep in our bed with bloody eyes . Who knows what will you do? Every time you enter the room  I feel the coldness running through my spine  I'm scared of what you might do to me next  Scared to even look at the bruises which you have given  Each and every mark that I had to endure  Was out of your coldness and ruthless for me What have i done to you to receive this torment ever too often? I was there in your lowest moment and now You enjoy every time you see me suffer  Whats wrong with you ? I have these marks in my body which are like a trophy to you  Slowly I'm going away like a snail  But you still make it hard to escape from this cycle  Sometimes you treasure me...

The pain of Betrayal

 Betrayal might be the worst gift a person can give you. It hurts more when someone backstabs you and acts nicely in front of you. But remember, you can face the battle of your thoughts, conquer your dreams, and prove them wrong. Sometimes, you have to be strong and face the problem head-on. Don't hide in a corner, crying about the situation; it won't lead you anywhere. We never lose friends; we only learn who our true friends are. So be grateful for the friendships you've made, and cherish those who are always there for you through ups and downs. Your past mistakes are meant to guide you, not define you. Let them go. Life is different from what I wanted it to be. People will take advantage of you, no matter how kind you were to them or how hard you tried to correct their mistakes. It will all come back to you, no matter how hard you tried to fix it. Betrayal hits hard when you trusted someone blindly and thought they'd be there for you. But you're stronger than you...

Letting go with a smile

 Why me, why not nobody else? Why did you take my innocence and rip open my chest? Was I an easy target, or a game you would play? Was I too sensitive, or did I only become the prey? I don't know what you did, But I am too stunned to speak. My heart and brain aren't working, Because I am still asleep. The memories we made still creep into my mind. Was it all a lie, what you told me, straight to my eyes? Hate isn't the word I'm looking for, but betrayal might be. I trusted you with all my deepest secrets. But was my life a lie? You told me it was safe with you, But who knows what you've done or used against me? I can feel the pain like a tsunami coming towards me. The waves look high, but can I defeat it with a smile? Maybe I can, maybe it's not that hard. I can see the sparkles in my eyes that know I can defeat it. It's not the season of betrayal, but it's time to let go. The past will be the past, and you can't change it. So move forward with people...

Healing from broken bones

It hurts deeply when you know someone who knows everything about you and was close to you, and they stab you with a knife. It hurts, right? Life isn't that simple. People will come and go, but what matters is the friendship you choose for yourself. It might last for a month or until you grow old. Choose friends who you can see yourself laughing with at 65 and still hanging out like it was in school. Make wise decisions to choose people who make you feel like home, not an outsider. Don't ever break their trust, which they have kept by sharing secrets and trusting you to keep them. No matter how much pain they cause, knowingly or unknowingly, don't break anyone's trust. It's hard to put back the pieces that have fallen off. If they break it, let it go. It will take time to heal, but eventually, you will start to trust again and form stronger bonds than before with people you love and who won't break your trust.

A gloomy night

 A gloomy night is where it is dark, and we feel sad and afraid, where there is no hope, and we feel overwhelming strong emotions of sadness, not knowing if we are lost in our world or if this is our world. Are we trapped inside of these strong emotions of sadness, guilt, anger, and frustration, and we don't know how to take out this gloomy day? It seems as if it keeps following us everywhere; we can't even have any happiness inside of us and cherish the wonderful moments we spend with our loved ones. Why does this darkness keep following us? Just go away. Why is there darkness, but if there is bad, there is also good? If there is evil, there is also good. If there is darkness, there is also light. We have to look for the light in a gloomy night. There are also stars and moons; they give us light, and it looks so beautiful that we can stare at it for hours. The light gives us comfort. Just like that, we have light; we just have to see it, not the bad things in life. There will ...

Shadows of My Soul

 I like being alone.  But sometimes I do long for someone to be there for me.  I wish I had someone to tell everything and all my deepest secrets. I'm always there to listen when someone needs to share something. But whome should I share my secret with , I don't really have anyone to trust  I don't even trust myself in my decision that I take. I'm happy i know , Yet i feel empty  It's as if I am stuck in the middle of the ocean trying to catch my own breath at times. My life is not as it's seems. I might look happy in the outside but inside in my head I know I am in a dark place  Trying to figure out my friken life Putting each puzzle piece together  Trying my best to know the purpose in life that I am looking for. Who am I to judge someone when I am faced with my own problem. We all are facing out own battles in the background of our head. Shield and swords there in the battlefield  Ready to fight. But we all are still in such a mess. Maybe one...

Sometimes things don't go as planned

  Maybe if I knew what was really happening.I could have done something before it was too late. I am sorry I didn't know what you were going through, and I was not there for you at this point in your life. Have you all felt like this at some point in life? Because I have. I know you'll easily blame yourselves for not helping them and feeling that you have shattered their trust in you and you're not worthy to have the same strong bond with your friends and loved ones. We all have faced this at some point in life. Sometimes you should also know it's not your fault; you can't control what was not meant to be. Remember, everything can't be in your hands. Life doesn't go as you planned. There will be times like these where you feel sad, unsure, and think, I deserve all of this sadness,but you're wrong. You're worthy and precious. God has made everyone unique in their own way. God has a plan for you too. Remember it's not your fault and that God has a ...

Take a break

  Sometimes you need a break from everything.It seems hard to just handle life and go with the flow. It will feel overwhelming to you. You will feel like disappearing in your own shadow and giving your life a break from reality. Sometimes it also drains you out and is bad for your mental health. Take a break and just do the things that you enjoy doing. Maybe find a new hobby; who knows if that will work out? Get out of your comfort zone and explore new adventures that might interest you. Go outside to see what the world can offer you besides the load you have on your shoulder. Admire the sunset on a tall mountain and just think of all the joyful memories that you have created for yourself.Take a break when you need it. Don't work yourself up.Always remember you can You will, and you will try your best.

Sometimes it's ok

  Be strong, people say. Don't show your emotions. Be a man. Hide every time that you feel weak and vulnerable. Don't cry. Don't show it out to people. Others say that you are weak when you show your emotions. You have to be a provider and learn to control your emotions. Don't be a wimp. You're not a girl, so be a man. Why has society made it this way, that guys have to be strong all the time and not show any emotions? Why can't they show their emotions openly? Why is it such a taboo to others? They are human, not an AI-generated machine that has to be strong and not show any emotions. Everyone has emotions; is it wrong to show them openly? Darkness will be everywhere, but it doesn't mean that when you are facing the problem, you have to face it with no emotion. Sometimes it's ok to express your emotions. Sometimes you just need someone to share your emotions and not bury them inside waiting for them to explode and get really worked up with life.